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It is currently 9:35pm and I am bored. My love just signed off and I have nothing to do except wait for tomorrow. Okay that is a huge lie. I could be cleaning my room, eating food, going to sleep early, reading the last book of the Hunger Games, screwing around on Youtube, reading the bible, doing devotions...but none of that calls to me. I just want to blog about my life because it's what I do...[9:37pm] so tomorrow, I have no morning swim practice. YAY!!. But I am also missing afternoon practice to attend my cousins birthday party. I think my mother and sister don't approve of my swimming so often, which is truly unfortunate because I definitely don't. (My love's back! YAY! But I shall keep blogging) And yeah...oh well...something else that's attacking my mind currently is the weird thing going on between my love's mom and me...which is really weird...I do not know what is happening, but it doesn't seem to be positive. Honestly, I just think she has a staple bias...that since I have decided to fall for him, she's just gonna be that much more critical on me. I wonder if she thinks I'm stealing him away from her...which is a horribly ridiculous idea...he's her son...[9:44pm] There's not much damage I could do there...not that I'd want to...if it was a me vs. her thing, I'd forfeit...I'd still love him and I wouldn't give him up, but I'd forfeit. I'd let her do whatever she wanted, think whatever she wanted to...and be an oyster...
Am I over analyzing this? No, I'm a girl...it's what I do. But while I'm on the topic (I certainly hope my anxiety is entertaining you)...I'm still scared of her. She's amazingly intimidating. I could just imagine having a conversation with her that turned into a total interview.If it comes to that, I certainly hope I pass.
I'll be prepared. I don't think she trusts me with her darling beloved son...Oh well...what can I do. Be a suck up and exclaim how wonderfully her nails are done and comment on her new dangly earrings? Screw that. I would hate myself even if that did work.