School.

So to summarize school aujourd'hui, it was ....okay. I realize that I use that adjective pretty often. I didn't used to be like that. I always used good or awesome or great. now everything's just okay. Anyways, today at school...it was just like any other day within the past week that I've had. Talking to people, smiling at things I don't particularly find funny. Perhaps I'm overreacting, but I just can't shake the feeling that there are some things about me that some people cannot understand or will not try to understand. I feel as though I have been sort of acting under a pretense for the past couple of months...for when I'm unhappy mainly...That'd just be something I'd do...push the sadness away and hide it in some closet in the back of my mind, hoping it goes away, hoping I'll distract myself enough to get away from it. But there are some people who really encourage that in my life, and not purposely...they're just not used to dealing with psychos like me. So rather than letting me alone...they just make it worse...again, not on purpose. I surround myself with happy people and because of their eternal happiness, I feel they do not understand my sadness when it's there. Huh...blog therapy...

I promise not to kill myself,
~Nancy