*sighs*

The constant sting of leaving. It's really stupid. I wish it would go away.

34th for March!

I think I blog too much. Just a little too much. I mean, who the hell's gonna have the time to read all these random bits of the inconsequential things in my life that bother me??!?!? Nobody. Oh well, if I wanted people to read this then I've already failed miserably at it so, why start to care now? Anyways, adding her on facebook was indeed a mistake. It was a horrid mistake, and a mistake that I cannot undo. Because it's so stupid!! AHHH. Okay.. I am crazy. That's final.. and that pic of me up there is really kinda scary. In my opinion, Christina likes it though, that's all hat really matters... unless Hannah C. doesn't like it.......then I'll probably take it down.

Eternity.

Quote to think about..
Lois Duncan - “If there were a mile high mountain of granite, and once every ten-thousand years a bird flew past and brushed it with a feather, by the time that mountain was worn away, a fraction of a second would have passed in the context of eternity.”

Being Pensive.

It's almost the fourth month of the eleventh year of the 21st century. And as the days pass, we're all getting older, approaching a certain fate. Wow, that literally sounds like hardcore intense stuff...It's the last week of spring break and after this, we have only 3 months til summer starts and then I start my last year of high school. That was fast. Last time I checked, I was in the seventh grade freaking out about high school and how hard it was going to be...Last time I checked, I was in the second grade begging my parents for a pet dog...Now I've been in existence for four years less than a score and I feel like omg...mid-teenage crisis goin' on here. Everything just seems to be moving so fast...and if one doesn't pay attention to what's going on...it's already over...

Instant Gratification

Wow. Two music videos in one week. Feels awesome. It's just so cool to make something that's entirely your own and then have it paired up with music and it's just like.. "wow. I just made that"
Mini movies ftw.

Lord Hamish

He's so cool. I love his smile. It's funny.
This is the dude that Alice rejects in Alice in Wonderland when he asks her to marry her. Good choice Alice, good choice.

Random Message Rhymes.

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Nancy Le March 25 at 9:44pm

Hey, hey, hey...what's up?

Ryan Mock March 25 at 9:45pm

Not much.

Nancy Le March 25 at 9:46pm

Well, honey... There's the sky..the stars..the clouds..and Mars..

Hmm.

Well.. you know what?
It's the last day today. :D

Don't Care.

Nope. this is my blog. I'm allowed to write whatever the hell I want on it and I don't care. I'd rather plaster it all over my blog then spam facebook you.
I miss you.

-And hell yes, absence does make the heart grow fonder. Stupid quotes. Why do dem quotez gotz to be true?

The more tired I am, the smaller my posts are.

I miss you.

I'm tired.

I'm tired.

imu.

I'm tired.

I feel like going to sleep and waking up in the summer.

I'm tired.

I wish.

I wish that one day my wishes will come true. Every single one of them.

I am anxious.

BAaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh...................................................................Blogging.........about.....stupid......course............grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.......................II ammmmmmmmmmm sooooooooooooooo AHHHHHHHHHHH.

Okay. Well. Ugh.

WSI.

Water.
Safety.
Instructor.




tomorrow.
9am-5pm
til Friday.

See ya then.

Music Videos.

So today was a very fun day for me. I woke up from a sleep over..went over to my bud's house with my other bud and we went back to my house and we made a music video. it was good. and it's only youtube right now..probably..but it's unlisted cause my buds might wanna change some crap on it. It was so fun making it outside and everything....love makin' these vids...and tomorrow i'ma go to ze metrotown mall avec mon ami s'appelle Hannah. and we're gonna go buy hair crap for my hair that just got cut lika dude. it's gonna be sweet. Surprisingly, Nancy Le is enjoying her Spring Break. :D

Oh Darling.

Ohh................I'm a quarter asleep. Laptop's in my room...in bed with my friend. My sister just got home...I'm sleepy. The End.

Et un jour, elle avait fâchée...

I'm tired. I'm annoyed. I'm irritated. I'm blah blah-blah blah-blah blah-blah...me me me me me me me. Maybe I'll go take a nap. Maybe I'll go pretend to not be pissed at nothing. Maybe I'll go eat.
I'm mad. At nothing. Everything is so inconsequential. Stupid.

au contraire

Contrary to my expectations, I am not super scared about getting my hair cut uber short. Also contrary to my expectations, I am not currently being swarmed by majorly depression self-esteem lowering thoughts about how my love is going away for almost two weeks with two beautiful girls. I actually laughed when I typed that. Actually, I'm kinda sorta maybe actually looking forward to Spring break...Star Wars marathon that may or may not happen [though I certainly hope it does...dunno if my mom will approve of 12 hours of movie watching with two dudes], birthday party that may or may not happen[ but better happen or else it would have been postponed for a whole freakin' month], WSI course that will finally signal the end of my lifeguarding course [finally!!]...and other things that may or may not happen. Oh...the gifts that life gives and what sighs we give as we reluctantly receive them. The future is full of potential.

Sometimes.

Sometimes I feel like life is absolutely perfect. Like the world isn't flawed. Like there aren't people on the other side of the world experiencing hardship. I have a flawed perception. Still, there are those moments in life when it feels as if everything is in order, everything is perfectly in place and during these moments I experience utter peace. Utter tranquility.And the inner riot within me calms down, the imperfections, the blemishes of the world aren't there. And life is perfect. Life is beautiful. Life is hopeful. Life is incredible.

Happy thoughts, joyful thoughts swirl around in my head and my mind entertains visions of the optimistic future.

's silly~

roses are red,
violets are blue.
i love cheese
and i love you.

guess who they are...

No complaints.

Life is good.

stop it. ugh.

stfu,.

Screw it.

Some crazy shiz'

Oh my goodness!!

click it >>> This is a magic portal to a different website where you will find amazingness in it's purest form!

Insecure.

Yes. that's right. Nancy is insecure. About a lot of things, surprisingly so, she's just too damn proud to actually show like she cares about that stuff. A lot of what I'm insecure about has to do with what I am in comparison to others. And I do that a lot. Comparing myself to people leads me to being insecure which leads me to doubting myself which leads to a whole big thing of other stuff. And in doing this, I find it hard to believe that I can be enough, that I'm acceptable as a person to love and a person to care about. The more I do this, the more I question my own value, my own worth. But honestly, I have to say, it's pointless to compare oneself to others. Love [brotherly, sisterly, relationships, friendships] is not about comparisons. It's not about choosing based on a checklist of some sort, and it's not about pointing out faults or weaknesses. This is something I still have yet to fully realize. Point is, no matter how much of a screw up someone is, if you love 'em...it's inside out, forever and always, you hold nothing of the past against them, and any insecurity on their part will be proven unnecessary because of all this.

~blog therapy. 's crazy, but it works. So far.


I promise not to kill myself,
~Nancy

School.

So to summarize school aujourd'hui, it was ....okay. I realize that I use that adjective pretty often. I didn't used to be like that. I always used good or awesome or great. now everything's just okay. Anyways, today at school...it was just like any other day within the past week that I've had. Talking to people, smiling at things I don't particularly find funny. Perhaps I'm overreacting, but I just can't shake the feeling that there are some things about me that some people cannot understand or will not try to understand. I feel as though I have been sort of acting under a pretense for the past couple of months...for when I'm unhappy mainly...That'd just be something I'd do...push the sadness away and hide it in some closet in the back of my mind, hoping it goes away, hoping I'll distract myself enough to get away from it. But there are some people who really encourage that in my life, and not purposely...they're just not used to dealing with psychos like me. So rather than letting me alone...they just make it worse...again, not on purpose. I surround myself with happy people and because of their eternal happiness, I feel they do not understand my sadness when it's there. Huh...blog therapy...

I promise not to kill myself,
~Nancy

Melodramatic.

I have been feeling down lately. If life's a roller coaster, it feels as though my ride just ended. Perhaps if I was a little less melodramatic, then I would be able to stop feeling to sorry for myself. What scares me about this is that I don't know why I've all of a sudden taken a turn down the road of despair, but I've got a feeling it has to do with déja vu. Because during the course of my life, I have encountered another situation like this one except a lot more dramatic and more tearful and sad and depressing and whatever...Maybe I'm just geared towards feeling dramatic things...maybe it's a subconscious act of my soul hinting at what I internally truly want : Attention. Which I really do want some of that. Who doesn't? Attention is nice, it makes you feel loved and makes you feel like you actually matter to some people. I really doubt that that's my problem though [DENIAL!] because I do get enough attention from a lot of people. Is it my insecurity catching up to me? Are my jealousies outta control? Or is it true that I am truly at my last strand of sanity. Whatever happens to me during the course of the next few days, I'll try to keep you posted 'cause I have a feeling this mood I'm in could make for some intriguing blogs.

I promise not to kill myself,
~Nancy

Confirmed.

It's true.

*sighs*

Roses are red. Violet are blue. Oh, the things I would do, just to be with you.

Ten minute ago...

I cried.

She's Sad.

I'm feeling so weird today. Strangely I'm feeling sad. Which is strange. I'm not used to it. Well, to be honest, I haven't been doing very well in the past couple of days. Someone asks me "How are you?" my standard answer has just been "Okay." Just okay. Worst part is...I'm not sure why. Or maybe I do know why but I don't feel like coming to terms with it. I don't feel like talking about it, thinking about it...As if pushing these things in a closets gonna make me feel better. I'm sad. Hmm.

I think it's pretty good having taken 15 seconds to write it.

There's a point in time when green is blue
When life is good, when lies are true.
Rarely ever is one lucky enough
to see it through...
When has the sky not yet fallen?
Is the land gonna stay cracked?
Heaven forbid I curse the days
Open the fiery pit below,
I burst into flames.

Pillow.

I am so tired
You have no idea.
I just wish that my pillow were here.