Three days left...

Just three days....just gotta hold on for three more days...and then it'll be all over. Might as well give it my all ,right? It's only 72 more hours. No biggie. I can do it. I might not pass, but for sure I'll be able to survive 72 more hours physical and psychological stress. and think of how much crap I'll have learned by the end of it. It'll be fine. I might not pass the course and I might have to do it again, but it'll be fine.


As long as I keep this cold a cold and not have it develop into strep throat or bronchitis.

*Prays*

National Lifeguard Service cont.

NLS isn't that bad. Just the daily seven hour dose of physical pain, exhaustion, and torture that I need. Especially while I'm sick. It's great!








































Note: If you can't sense the sarcasm then I suggest that you go to the hospital. Immediately.

National Lifeguard Service

Oh my goodness! I am so ANXIOUS!!!!

Apparently, this is supposed to be the hardest of the lifeguarding courses out there!!!! OMG I am so gonna die.....I'm gonna die.I'm gonna die. I'm gonna DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

How the hell am I [a 5 foot tall, weak, skinny, 95 lbs asian litte girl] supposed to pass this thing?!?! I'm gonna have to practice saving people twice my height and weight for goodness' sakes!! Baahhhhh...I'd rather be at the mall wandering around and wasting money..but noooooo....I get to do a course on life saving....I'd better pass the first time, or I couldn't bare having to do this thing twice. :(((((

I am honestly really anxious right now. I have absolutely no idea what I'm getting into. Ugh.
Oh well. Whatever. It'll all be over by Thursday night.
I hope I pass.

I'm gonna die. x_x

talking on the phone with my brother

Oh dear!

OMG an elephant!!! he says. Elephants are awesome!!!! <
and here comes the narration of family guy.....and crashed,eh?
My brother is crazy, seeing as he's not really my brother...but he is... [PARADOX ALERT!]

And some big old brown guy saved him from drowning this one time.......must talk him into going into my swim club.

go away.....


if you are too scared to ask my mom to talk to me...you know what? next time I won't call you back. xD

So there!

Burgundy.

LOLS o-h-n-a-i-r-b!

Roses are red
Violets are blue
I really don't know...
what to write about you...
All I know is your my friend...
But only been for a pretty short time
So this'll be hard,
But I'll try to make it rhyme. :)
So I see you every Sunday,
I don't know if that's good or bad
but I think if we ever stopped cheating...
My marks would be pretty sad
and there was this one time
when you thought you knew who I liked...
Don't worry about a thing
you know you're not my type. xD

rose. aren't. red. oh. but. they. are!

Roses are red, violets are blue
my only fear is that I will forget you.

Okay. Well. That was awkward.

..................................................................................
dots dots d o t s . . .

OMG! DOTS! d o t s . d o t s . . . . . (those are d o t s ! ! !)

Will you marry me?
No.
Why?
Because you're crazy.
...
*silence*
Hmm...that's a good reason.

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Don't let's talk about these matters; my mind is already full of these useless thing.

[OMG! I used a semi-colon! ...I feel so smart! :) ]

Me:So. Guess what!
Person who is reading this: What.
Me:Ihavedonethemostamazingfeateverdonebyanancyeverbefore!
Person who is reading this: *fake interest* Oh Gee! What's that!
Me: I bought. a dress!!! *squeals*
Person who is reading this: *thinking* I really don't care.
Me: *teardrop

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FOOD. FOOD. FOOD-FOOD-FOOD!

french fries and onion rings taste so good. La-la la-la-la-la
And so does pumpkin PIE!!!!
--------------------------------------

I love you too.
But unfortunately for you, I am too cruel to ever bare my soul and actually tell
you.

xD

Incredible...

Really, no joke, I think that I have found the bestest person in the world and (surprise, surprise) it's a girl. :P

Okay seriously, she's the most energetic, silly, kind-hearted, lively, opinionated, respectful, faithful, AND trustworthy person I have ever come in close contact with. AND she's even got good looks to boot! Even though, I never really thought that she was ever very pretty until a couple months ago (the truth hurts baby) I found that what my mom said was absolutely true. She always said that no matter how good-looking someone is on the outside truly, it doesn't matter much because unless they're a good person, they're still gonna seem pretty ugly. Okay, I don't really understand what I just said either...it made sense in Vietnamese okay?!




Point is I have been heavily blessed with the friendship of this person and I should thank God for such a great friendship because she is just absolutely stunning in almost every single possible way. Almost. ;)

I'm a JEALOUS ...

Dear God,

Fo' shiz I got myself a question that I have been dying to find an answer to. And I am so not willing to wait till the afterlife to get it. Why on Earth did you make me such a jealous girl??? WHY?! I need to know what this has to do with Your Plan of Awesomeness. So far, it has only wreaked havoc in my being, it's like having an ongoing civil war inside of myself. Of course I don't have to explain it to You since You've probably already noticed, but OH MY GOODNESS!!!!! I don't want to feel this way no matter how often it is and I don't want to resent people for the foolish reason that is my jealously. It is mean, unreasonable, and a fault of mine that I despise. Bah. and no, this is not a prayer, this is a monologue between a "work of art" (Psh...) and a Creator. I wonder if Your ever hurt when one of your creations lashes out and complains about themselves...like I am doing now. Another one of those questions which I must ask when I meet You which hopefully I shall... except for this one...I expect a loud booming voice to speak to me from the clouds some time soon.

New Post.

And I felt like writing a new post....in the middle of the night.. so here it is...'New Post'...

I really don't know what to say now that I writing.. but I have decided that whatever I type out, I must keep it there and not change anything except for spelling mistakes. So there. I win. I really should be going to sleep.. but I'm not because I'm not sure I want to go to sleep... I mean, yeah, I tired..ish...but it's a freakin' Friday... so it's like... screw it..


So I just finished watching the movie "Dirty Dancing"... it's pretty okay...except in a strange way, it kinda reminds me of High School Musical except that it's less family friendly. There are some scenes in it that really surprised me because despite the title, I didn't really take it to heart... So a lot of things surprised me... like the 'dirty dancing' part...
Oh well...I can handle it... sort of...

Okay.. I really should go to sleep. Bah... on't know what is wrong with me... maybe something...maybe nothing... maybe everything!?!

Oh whatever... I am going to type till I feel like stopping..okay I should go ..bye

Happy

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



teehee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I am so happy .
happy. happy.

with no real reason why.


HAPPY!

Conclusion

I have come to the conclusion that I suck.
at
almost
absolutely
e v e r y t h i n g . . .
the means
a n y t h i n g


...How come the only things that seriously matter to me are the only things that I seem to have trouble with? How does that make any sense?
Why?

Go away.

Putting in quite bluntly...

I
hate
flesh-eating
cockroaches.





No butterflies for me, my dear.
I get
Cockroaches.




Why is it so easy and so hard at the same time, love?

Stupid heart stopping and figurative melting,
Stupid not being able to look away,
Stupid clumsiness and becoming tongue-tied....
Ugh.
I
now
suck
at
this.

this time, it was my fault...

FAIL.

In a crowded room, it's only him that I see...

So many words to say, yet they all avoid my lips. Feelings so deep and intense, it feels as though my heart could burst any minute, any second...all this hope gone to waste and all these dreams nearly shattered...oh, the irony, the sickening irony that is life and the heart-wrenching, silent, and sad smile that is my light. Pray that next time I will not be rendered speechless nor will I surrender to the voiceless shadow I became.

Catching A Wave...

Just lying there, a small speck on the ocean. Out here, the waves gently rock me back and forth but in the distance I hear waves crashing at the sandy shore.

Waiting...waiting...waiting...

And yet, nothing is happening, nothing is changing...
Only a girl on her board in the middle of the sea.
Bathing in sun and solitude...

Turn around...
It's there! It's here!
Three meters back, a wave!
Paddle!
Butterfly!
Hurry!!!

Hands at your shoulders!
Knees up!
Left foot!
Get low!

...and I'm standing
Riding the waves of a deep blue, tropical Hawaiian sea.

Story Of My Love Life. As of now.

Always there, always listening
"I don't care"
Now you're whistling...
Get the picture?
"I am ...confused"
I see flickers
of your feelings
in the shadows..
What the Fudge?!
Turn around
I love ice cream.
Mushroom.

Blue.

Like the crystal sea,
Shining, sparkling, shimmering...
Turquoise, cerulean, azure...
The waves move like it is alive with what is beneath it.

Alfredo, My Love...

I made alfredo fetticine today! Yaay me! it's awesome..and it has like three ingredients (the recipe i used did...feel free to criticise): creeam, Butter, and Parmesan Cheese..
Oi vey.
No wonder it tastes good. :]

Alfredo Fetticine....Mmm!

Hope

I dreamt a dream
a wonderful thing
My heart leapt with joy.
Out of the shadows appeared a knight called Hope
He gestured I follow him to the fields of happiness
Green grass
and the vivid sun shone
I opened my eyes to find...
All anxiety had gone.

Such a vision to have,
my one and only...
Dream
I'll remember you.

miss him already
gotta drag myself away
why should i have to go
when there are so many reasons to stay


Hannah, you've got it all wrong,
it's the other way around, crazy

The Almond Astronaut

The Almond Astronaut
He flies at night
The Almond Astronaut
Stay out of his sight
For he can vanquish
your every smile
And you'd never notice
all the while...


How would it feel?
To never smile?
Numb with depression...
Nothing's worthwhile

..well..you know what they say.
If you can't turn up the corners, sag the middle. :)






By Nancy Le feat. Kevin Le
'cause we cool like dat.

on the spot.

Don't know how the future's gonna turn out...
Wondering what life really is about...
Hopin' some way, we can come through with this plan...

Are you with me?

Well in five years time we could be walkin' 'round the zoo'

...with the sun shining down over me and you.

I'll put my hands over your eyes but you'll peek through...


Your smile lights up my entire universe. just thought you should know.

Smile.

because you can. because someone cares about you.because you're not going to sleep hungry tonight.because you have a million opportunities to do what you want in life.because you are the only person that gets to decide where you want your life to end up. because somebody loves you. because you don't have to struggle to survive every day. because you can.

you're a candle in the window on a cold dark winter's night.

Okay then, last night was ....weird.. Guess that's what I get when I'm blogging at 11 30 at night while I'm sick and stuff...
Haha! it's like things that you regret doing when you're drunk except I don't drink so this is my version, things that you kinda almost regret but not really because it's so entertaining when you're blogging at 11pm while sick and on meds.
But seriously, I can't believe that I did those things last night.
....and that sounded dirty. But it wasn't because I wasn't ...yeah...okay moving on!

I seriously hate being sick. It's horribly disgusting and you're all like 'BLAAH!!!!' and it feels like you have an army of ants that are attacking your throat..
But I have to have to HAVE TO!! get better by tomorrow because other than the fact I have Vocal Jazz tomorrow and I need to be able to sing... I promised my sister that if I don't get better by the time the long weekend is over that I'd go to the doctor. And I don't wanna go to the DOCTOR!!!!!! 'Cause doctors scare me.. okay no they don't but it's seems so pointless when you just have a mild cold...I should go eat more apples.
But that quote doesn't make sense to me!! Like the absolutely literal meaning of it 'An apple a day keeps the doctor away.' makes it sound like you can ward away doctors with apples the way you ward away vampires with garlic!! Like okay yeah, i get that it means that apples are good for you and will keep you healthy enough that you won't ever need to go to the doctor but okay..Imagine a korean international student ('cause my school has so many of them!) and they just came to Canada and they barely know any English at all...plus they're afraid of doctors. Isn't it possible for them to interpret the quote wrongly? They'd be carrying apples with them everywhere! and then everytime they are near a doctor, they hold out like an apple in front of them as like protection... oh wow...
Off topic much.

So I have decided that every single time that I write something strange like this, it'll be titled a line from a song that I could think of at the moment.. and yeah..I don't get songs stuck in my head...they just kinda go through one ear..mingle in my brain ..and then they go out the other ear..

No one can save me like you do...

holy craap...being sick is making me retarded.. So hey guys, I found out that a couple millions years ago that I am partially if not totally taken over by that naked kid that has wings and shoots arrows at stuff..yup.
oh, and I'm sick btw so...yeah....
Confession: I think I'm in love.
Whoops! there goes my secret...wow...I had a secret...
He's such a weirdo too....which is good and bad because like....okay imagine our kids. (not that I'm planning on having any or anything but for conversational interestingness's sake)
they would be the most messed up children ever!
They'd have like ....omg....they be like freaks of nature..not even kidding.. imagine ...okay imagine a boy asian kid...with freckles...and green eyes......it just doesn't work...it's like....now imagine a white girl with dark straight brown hair and asian type squinty eyes....wait....I don't have squintty eyes..do I???

(rushes over to mirror) hmmm...not sure.....
anyways....okay....maybe the girl kid would be kinda cute but the guy kid would be taunted....maybe...unless he was awesome like his crazy mom....
Wow.....I just realized how embarassed of me my kids are gonna be...Haha! I could totally imagine myself being that mom that thinks she's all 'down with the kids' when she really isn't..oh dear....imagine:
midget mother who thinks she's cool.

You know what? whoever you are? creeping my page?
I think freckles are really really, really really really really, really..REALLY!!!!!!!! really really really really really really really (is it startin' to look weird yet?) really really- really, really really..
cute. :)

wow, look who's obsessed tonight!
guess it must be the meds and the vitamin C.
and I'm facebooking him right now too...he's probably weirded out by me and how hyper I am but that's okay cause that's how we roll..:D

i don't even know why I titled the title a line from Hedley's song "You're Amazing"......I think it's cause I was kinda all like 'I love you!!! but I dun' wanna tell you o'er the internet cause i hate saying things like that o'er the internet cause i think it lessens the value so imma write a retarded blog instead..'

and yeah.....
okay... I think y'all has gotz enough convincing that I am crazy for a day.
not that any of you NEED convincing.
's all.
Bye.

It's black and white, we cool for life.

I know that we are young and I know that you may love me...
but I just can't be with you like this anymore...
Alejandro.

love of my life..

I ain't got no fancy ride,
ain't got no money to go out tonight...
All I got is this feelin' inside..

all i know is what i want
and it's you.

4:22
and i'm thinkin' 'bout you,
dunno what to do..
but then what else is new?

The Fallen Leaves..

the falling leaves....
drift by my window
the autumn leaves...
of red and gold...
I see your lips
the summer kisses...


the sunburned hands..
I used to hold..




not by me... song I had to sing for Vocal Jazz auditions..

Lead the Way

Lead the way
Through the fog and smoke
Away from dreary dreams
from dark despair
Lead the way..
&& I'll follow...

heysothisisn'tmeanttobesuperseriousoranythingsojustchillaxcauseimtotesgoatsawesometastical.. word.

So hey, I don't have a diary anymore, kinda gave that up a loooooong time ago so i guess this will just have to do. most of it you probs won't understand anyways so i'm not too freaked about puttin' this lump of my brain into the internet so here goes.....
I am trying my hardest not to fall out of the hot air ballon here. wanna know why? it's cuz i know that there is absolutely no way a trampoline shall magically appear beneath me. even if i did fall out, i'd probs jus' have to get up myself 'cause no one will be there to help me up. well....not NO ONE, more like no one I really truly want. && even if they were there, they'd probs jus' stand around lookin' awkward and out of place having nothing to say only having things to type.

So let's say for curiousity's sake I did happen to fall out of my precious hot air balloon in the sky and there's no trampoline. so instead of falling on the trampoline, i get to land in a pile of bs. nice. of course The Oyster Man and Miss Quinceanera are there to tell me how horrid i smell while helpin' their crap-covered friend up but whatever happened to Mr.Magical Champignon? Oh yeah, he's busy pretending to be wallpaper.

and while i'm sitting there lookin' like my cat had just died, Lady Smiles-A-Helluva-Lot asks me if i wanna have a quote-on-quote "Heart Talk" and now instead of thinking about what I was thinking about before, I'm thinking "wtf is a "Heart Talk" "
.....thinking back now, i'm wondering why tf did I not go ahead and have a freakin' "Heart Talk"???

Oh right.
I was waiting for the invisible trampoline.

Next time, I'll bring a parachute because I know there will be a next time. and hopefully I'll land next to the bs, not in.

&&& if I have to read another 'sorry' so help me, I will
tell you that it's okay and that I forgive you
because I do.


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Umm.....excuse me...yes, you the one holding a substantial amount of my figurative heart in the palm of your freakin' hand. If you're feelin' a lil clumsy today, mind putting it in a box or something? or keepin' it somewhere safe? 'Cause I don't got a whole lot of those lying around.
thanks. i appreciate it. ^_^

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"Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth"

--- 1 John 3:18

That goes for all o' y'all.

some weird/depressing crap that i found in my documents folder...

Untitled
It’s an endless circle of hurt
Hurled time and time again
At the brick wall
Blood everywhere washing over soon-to-be scars
Yet I wish it was that feeling that actually happened
Rip me, Tear me. Hurt me
That’s what you’re meant to do
Tears well up in my eyes
Bite my lips to hold them back
It’s happening
All over again
It cannot be healed
It cannot be suppressed
It cannot be calmed
Uncontrollable hurt
Raging pain everywhere
Hurt! Hurt! Hurt!
It’s happening
All over again
You can’t escape it.....

Untitled 2:

The lonely road is before us.
And as I walk through it I remember past happenings
Things that are long gone
Back then, the past was life
So now is this life now past?
Are we the past of the future?

Unwanted Solitude:

Stuck all alone
In this cold wide setting
I am helpless in this scene
And I am seen as helpless
A hopeless, helpless, friendless being
By myself, I walk through these hallways
Through crowded corridors of a mingling species
Kind to their familiars
But isolating others not yet known to them
Isolating strange new creatures
Those who are different
And those who are misunderstood
A hard place it is to be
In this scenario
Stuck all alone.
Or are we the future of the past.....

According to what little I know..

Love is when the other person's needs matter more thnyour own. It is when the only time you can be happy is when you are sure that they are.Love, unlike most other things, perseveres through everything.
Love lasts forever.

Infatuation is when your needs are more important than the other person's. It's when the relationship only lasts as long as it's convenient for you.
Infatuation is a cheap copy.


F.A.Q's

Q.How in the world can you tell the difference?

A. Only time will tell...

I turn around..

...and the feelings that rushed through me when I saw his face showed me the inevitable. I finally reconciled with the one truth that I had been denying for so long. I loved him.

Who are YOU?!

I'm confused...are you still my friend?
Cause that's what you said.
'best friends til the end'
But it doesn't make sense when I call and you're out
and I don't get a call back.
and it adds to the doubt...
It's really fine; I don't care
if you moved on and left me behind
I just don't think it's fair
to just leave me to find
that my friend just left me
without a single word...
and that lies and fake promises
were the last things I ever heard
.....

one of those things to brighten your day...:)

Talking Dog for Sale

This guy sees a sign in front of a house "Talking Dog for Sale." He rings the bell and the owner tells him the dog is in the back yard. The guy goes into the back yard and sees a mutt sitting there.
"You talk?" he asks.
"Yep," the mutt replies.
"So, what's your story?"
The mutt looks up and says, "Well, I discovered this gift pretty young and I wanted to help the government, so I told the CIA about my gift, and in no time they had mejetting from country to country, sitting in rooms with spies and world leaders, cause no one figured a dog would be eavesdropping. I was one of their most valuable spies eight years running.
"The jetting around really tired me out, and I knew I wasn't getting any younger and I wanted to settle down. So I signed up for a job at the airport to do some undercover security work, mostly wandering near suspicious characters and listening in. I uncovered some incredible dealings there and was awarded a batch of medals. Had a wife, a mess of puppies, and now I'm just retired."
The guy is amazed. He goes back in and asks the owner what he wants for the dog. The owner says "Ten dollars."
The guy says he'll buy him, but asks the owner, "This dog is amazing. Why on earth are you selling him for $10?"
The owner replies, "He's such a liar."

the truth is...

love isn't just 'i miss you so much...'

love is 'you're such a weirdo......but i still miss you anyways'

this is what true love really is...

i feel a poem comin' on..........

i think that the cherries are ripe today
gosh..it's too sunny to go outside and play
what is there to do? what am i to say?
i don't know...

ramble, ramble, ramble.....

this is what happens when i try to write
all the good words disappear from my sight
so really nothing is gonna make sense
so as you read this...don't think i'm too dense

and that's why this blog is called : musings of a CRAZY person

Suspended

I feel suspended,

Hanging from an edge
of a cliff called Despair

what's on my mind?

Roses are red
Violets are blue
Just thought you should know,
that I love you too.

have mercy...

not fair, not fair, not fair,not fair...

Rule # 1 : Life's not fair
Rule # 2 : When in doubt, refer to rule number one.

The Cliche Song.

When I see you, I don't know what to say
You've got me tongue-tied in every single way
And even though I'm too shy to tell the truth
There's nowhere I'd rather be than with you

CHORUS:
('Cause) You make my head spin round 'n round
My heart flies like a bird just set free
Look into your eyes and I can hardly breathe
Everything's perfect when you are with me

When I'm with you, I feel like I can fly
You make me feel like I can touch the sky
I'm just a girl whose had her world turned upside-down
Wonderin' if this is love I've finally found

CHORUS

Bridge ~

All I need is you beside me
All I want is to see you smile
All i need is you to see that

You are my dream come true.....Kind of
And all I can hope is that you might feel the way I do


CHORUS x 2

the end. :P

Yeah...so I have no idea what to call it so if any of you creepers out there wanna help, I would greatly appreciate it. Keep in mind while you're reading this whoever you are, it's a song! It's not super seriously the honest truth...it's more like the truth except warped and melted and blended into a song. Sure, it's based on a couple things and people but yeah, you get the point.

Leave me a comment!

Confused.

I am confused
What should I do?
ignore it.
pretend it isn't there.
Which is kind of hard to do..
It's everywhere
How can I turn my back on it?
how can I ignore what seems so important to me?
I can't.
But knowing me...
i'll probably try...
-otis

A Very Cute Poem.

found it in my poem folder this morning. while tryna find some inspiration for my song..musta written like over a year ago....

untitled:

I don't want to admit it
But I know that it's true
As much as I've tried to hide it
...I'm in love with you

...i'm speechless.

Today I learned that I share my birthday with Robert William Pickton, pig farmer by day/ serial killer by night.

...you learn something new everyday.

chorus of a song i'm working on...

you make my head spin round 'n round
my heart flies like a bird just set free
look into your eyes and i can hardly breathe
everything's perfect when you are with me.

i love...(partial)

1. jumping up and down for no apparent reason
2. being awesome
3. feeling loved
4. feeling fuzzy
5. smiling at people i don't know cause then they either smile back or act really weirded out
6. to eat food
7. to sleep
8. to swim
9. to humiliate myself by trying to play the guitar
10.shane dawson.

teehee :)

falling....

honestly, i think you're the type of person that wouldn't catch me when i fall,
but rather
the type of person that would run and get a trampoline for me to fall on. :)

oh crap.

Lady Gaga concert!
and now i'm starting to doubt that i wanna go
because the opening band kinda creeps me out
and im kind of afraid of Lady Gaga now
she's absolutely genius
but she's also a little out there as far as performances go...
I'm mainly minorly creeped out by...
Semi Precious Weapons..
dunno what imma do if one of em randomly jumps in front of me and starts screaming random crap
oh well....
as long as i come back alive and intact,
i most likely won't regret this experience.

...hopefully.

Color Conundrum

why is blue sad?
why is red mad?
why is yellow happy?
and why is pink sappy?

i have no idea.
anyone out there wanna help me with this conundrum?

une texte par Nancy Le

Roses are red,
violets are blue,
For some reason i just
can't stop thinking of you..<3

otis. (continuation of 'I Don't Like You")

when you're with me...
...i can't think entirely straight

when you look into my eyes...
...i can hardly breathe

when you smile at me...
...i simply can't help but smile back

*** *** *** *** ***

this is not a lie. <3

Broken Glass

One single sliding tear
He finally spoke the words I feared
It all started to crumble down
Now broken, shattered on the ground.

...

2 years
2 months
&& 25 fkn days.

and then what?

Nothing has Changed.

And I thought it was getting better
but apparently not
Freedom was the only thing
I ever sought
Though I'm not getting it
I don't really care
I'm almost getting used
to things being unfair

Tragedy of My Life! (hyperbole!)

Every thought, every word
is what I have to hide
All the things that I've felt
I must keep inside
I wish I could tell you
Let the truth spill out
I wish I could say
All these things
I've found out
i thought silence was all
that I had to face
But now you're starting
to give me some space
Is it 'cause you think
I don't like you too?
Because that is the farthest thing from the truth...

Roses are Red....with extra cheese!

Roses are red
Violets are blue
all I can say
is I love you.

Roses are red
Violets are blue
This might seems strange
but I like you too.

Roses are red
Violets are blue
For every word that I've said
I meant to say 'I love you.'

Roses are red
Violets are blue
Everything around me
Reminds me of you

Roses are red
Violets are blue
The only paths I want to take
Are those that lead me to you

Roses are red
Violets, blue as the sea
I'll never be home
Until your arms are around me


..So apparently I only write good poetry when I am in emotional pain/distress or going through trauma/shock....
This is a combination of both that's why its so good!

Oh My! I Can't Find My Tie!

Oh my! I can't find my tie!
It's not under my bed
..or so my mom said.
I'm running around!
It's nowhere to be found!
I've looked everywhere!!
..even in my hair.
Oh, what the heck
lemme check..
Yup...it's 'round my neck

Teehee :]


co-written by Kayla and Kathy Ho
inspired by: Kayla-Face

Uh-Oh! I've Lost My Toe!

Uh-Oh! I've lost my toe!
Where have you gone?
I last saw you on my lawn..
I miss you so much
Walking ain't fun with a crutch
Now my life sucks
I'm so down on my luck.
Oh! where can it be?!
oh...right beside me..
Put it on with some glue..
Now, who should I sue?
(not my poo...it's broke.)

co-written by lovely nieces : Kayla and Kathy Ho

Oh dear!..Where is My Ear?!

Oh dear, where is my ear?
I've checked the whole place..
It's not on my face :(
What am I to do?
Maybe I should sue...
but who?
my poo?
I'm so immature...
Maybe it's the fur...
Still can't find my ear..
Oh wait! it's right here!
The end..



co-written by lovely niece ~ Kayla Ho.

Road Trip trip squared.

Home...home...home.
Back to my bed
Back to my room
Back to my lovely life
Back to you.
Home.

Road Trip trip!

While your moment of love
Seems to be sent from above
How can you tell
If it was sent from Hell
Like things of the past
Good things only last so long
And in a blink of an eye
Those moments are long gone.

Roses are Red.....Failure!

Roses are red
Violets are blue
My wish on the stars
is to be with you.

Roses are red
Violets are blue
I know one thing for sure
and that is I miss you.

Roses are red
Violets are blue
today I've realized
I can't be without you.

Roses are red
Violets are blue
When I look at your face
I'm reminded of poo. <-------that one is mean, I know...but who said they ALL had to be romantically cheesy, eh?

Anticipate

Time goes so slowly
Making its way
Patiently
There is no rush for it
me, however
I am impatient
Waiting has no purpose
Why can't it just come ALREADY!
Every second seems like an hour
Every tick seems to resound for eternity
...The End!

Cancer

Like a weed; a parasite
eating inside out
working its way to the inner core
Germinating, reproducing
Pain would be a mercy
This is not pain
Torturous, harrowing, insufferable
Death cannot come fast enough

Again I Must Ask...

Is it truly better to have loved and lost rather than to not have loved at all? What kind of happiness can ever justify the crippling pain that follows a lost love? Pain that absolutely and entirely eclipses light making a bright sky into the darkest of nights. How can one reconcile with an eternity of a possiblity lost before it ever started? Tell me the rationalization of this heartbreak for I do not understand. It is a hard thing to be filled with a hope when its obvious fate is to be shattered

Dedicated to the love that never was and never shall be.

Oh, Beloved Arm!

There once was a camel named Arm
Who always jumped up in alarm
One day she went crazy
Because she's so lazy
And then she was sent to a farm.

A Rose Has Its Thorns

The nagging voice of heartache
Is it truly better to have loved and lost
than to not have loved at all?
Twisted and snarled are the thoughts in my mind
Confusion is stirring within my soul
how can one's heart give so much and yet
get so little in return?
I am but a shadow to him
I exist but I am too minor to take note of
What shall I do?
What can I do to change your mind?
Nothing
nothing
nothing is what I'll do
and nothing is what I'll become.

Black Fire

There is a fire within me
Burning,destroying the past
Forget all that is done
I want it to be over already!
Fire burn,Burn,BURN!
Burn me until there is nothing more than ashes
Black ashes and the smell of incense
Oh! unjust world, cruel world
When will the fiery phoenix appear?
from the shadows of Dark Desperation.

The Day Is Old

Today seems so slow
the clock moves at such a slow rate
tick...tick...tick
the seconds go by as fast as a snail's pace
cars seem to all be in reverse
and the rain evaporates as it falls
You know something is wrong
when things are set in slow motion

I Don't Like You

I don't like you at all. I don't listen to your voice, I don't sneak looks at you, in fact, I couldn't care less about you. My heart doesn't melt when you say my name nor does it stop when I look up to see your smile. I don't wish that you would notice me anymore than you already do and it doesn't matter to me how close we are as friends. It doesn't bother me when you walk farther and farther away from me; I even avoid you because I don't care. And I can't tell you anything of this because it would be really rude.

That is a lie.

I like you too much. The sound of your voice is home and I constantly sneak looks at you when I think you're not looking. It seems like every part of me melts when I hear you say my name and I can hardly breathe when I see you smile at me. Sometimes I wish you would just notice me more and that we were closer friends than the acquaintances that we are. Everytime you walk away, I feel like following you and I avoid you because I care too much. And I can't tell you any of this because I would rather live in the dream world where you might like me too rather than facing the reality that you don't.

Poisoned Apples

It’s taking over me
Like a malicious poison
Sinking into my skin
Take pity on me
For the searing pain
Is too much to take
My strength cannot hold up
Falling victim under the suffering
It hurts…

~ I let loose one more breathe
Numb with pain
My consciousness is lost…

Roses Are Red

Roses are red
Violets are blue
Though we are apart
I’ll be thinking of you

Shattered

Face the day through silent tears
Trapped and enclosed by my only fears
Bring on reality and shatter my dreams
Of whose happiness matters?
Not mine it seems

Addiction

Every time I heard your lies
A small part of me dies inside
As much as I want to be with you
You always hurt me
With what you put me through
If I stay any longer
I fear my end
Against your words
I cannot defend
I realize now
No matter how I fought
You are my weakness
In your web I was caught

Time

Time changes who we are
With things we are set against
The things we put up with
They changes us
As if we were clumps of clay
They mold us
Shape our ways
Until the final product has appeared
We are who events and happenings have made us to be
Given the things we have been put through
We are the remainder.

Real Beauty

Upon a fence I sat
My eyes on my silent companion
A red-breasted robin
Perched upon my tree
My loud voice frightens it
At my dismay it flies a distance ,hiding
And only to my hopeful words
Did it once again appear to me
So slowly the sky fades to dark
Only brilliant hues remain
I see a sky streaked with orange and pink
And as the robin with me enjoy this evening
I realize
This is real everlasting beauty

Cheese Poem

I like cheese
Can I have some please?
I’m on my knees
Just gimme the cheese
Fine, be a sleaze
I’ll go get my keys
And steal my own cheese
Hmph!