On Another Note.

I really really REALLY badly want to eat some McDonald's right now...........................oh Big Mac!! Come to me!!! and take along your companion, FRENCH FRIES!!!!!! Please!!!

Sighs.

Argh.

Omegle - Kader from Algeria

Out of Ideas!?/Descriptions/Itinerary?

I'm really stupid. Moody today. Blaaah!!! I keep trying to make a new blog post but all the things I come up with just aren't good enough!!! It all just seems so meaningless when it's written on the screen. Like the value and worth of the words I type out diminishes with every letter I press. It's so stupid because in my mind, there are so many things that I want to express and so many emotions that I want to share...but I can't!! there are so words, there is nothing that I can say or type that would ever accurately relate the things I am experiencing to the reader. Oh well, too bad.

So here I am. Sitting in my living room. On a beige, leather, sectional sofa. Wearing short black Nike shorts, a white spaghetti-strapped tank top, and a red hoodie that's a tad too big and lacking the end of its zipper.

I started the day off with morning swim. I came home. Changed and laid in bed for ten minutes. Let four tears escape me. Wrote on my calendar. Got up, turned on my laptop, ate food, got ready for volunteering. And now I am here.

Dissection.

I have carefully dissected the tangle of emotions that I sometimes get.

Excited. Anxious. Anticipation. Happiness. Desire. Relief.

It makes me feel like jelly.

Ernestine

I met her today. Her name tag said "Ernie" and I wondered aloud if that was truly her name. She said yes and that she had only met two other Ernestines in her life so far. She's 54 year old. I was surprised when she told me her age so blatantly. Usually, women are more conservative with that part of themselves. She was quite nice for a cashier. A 54 year old one working after 7pm on a Friday night. I bought a single stemmed rose for a project. I love how spontaneous I can be.

Meeting Ernestine was great. A small moment of my life shared with a total stranger's. but she'll never know my name. Oh well. I'll be remembered by her as the teenaged girl who purchased a rose with a jug a 1% milk.

 The first gesture she did to me was wink at me. And the last thing she said to me was "Have a great night" or something like that...

Options

1. We'd be together, happy as can be.
2. We'd be together, one or both of us unhappy, It ends.

1a. Lead perfect lives, live comfortably and happily together.
1b. Lead average lives, maybe not so comfortably, but happy.
1c. Something happens, poor. But happy.
Married? Kids? Apartment? House?


2a. Mutual ending of the relationship, stay friends, it's all good.
2b. Someone gets dumped, not exactly close friends, but friends. (dumped, such a bad sounding word)
2c. Dumped, again, this time, there's no chance of being friends, never talk again.
2d. (if married) divorce.
2e. (if kids) custody?
2f. Someone falls out of love, and back in with someone else, either cheats, or leaves to be with them instead. (possibly even moves away)