The Future Looms

Hi there everyone,
I'm feeling very frazzled right now, just a side effect of thinking about the future and thinking about a job and all that crap. My mom really wants me to go major in French and then get some government job, but I feel like a government job means a desk job in a cubicle and that not only doesn't appeal to me... it frightens me. I don't want to waste away in some tedious position that I abhor and detest... I don't want to be stuck in one place all my life. I want to go places, be a part of moving forward... I want to spend my career pushing the limits of creative thinking and artistic expression, not stuck in a box working with someone over me telling me where the line has been drawn.
Argh. Argh. Argh.

I am afraid. I am afraid of the future and what it could possibly hold for me. I am afraid of being forced to become something I don't want to be. I'm afraid of working at a job that pays well, but one that I hate.


I'm so afraid for next year.