Music Video Making.

The Only Exception.

Blergh. It's going great and wonderful and awesome. The video's perfect...and it ends with them together.

Now how do I apply that to real life?

If only.

Oh well... I won't let that get me down. There's always time. Unless death occurs..

Though it probably won't. Hopefully.

Same Page

Good to know that I'm not alone in having these thoughts.

Just You + Me.

So wonderful.

Start Time : 2:47am

I'm awake. Fatigue level..mild... Happiness level...pretty good...
It's pretty late and I don't think I've ever blogged this late before.. However...I kind of love it...because under special circumstance..like being tired.. I do not really care what comes out of my mind... So that results in a very interesting conversation over Facebook with a certain boy I'm enraptured by. I wonder if..since all of facebooks conversations are saved there in their archives ..if some creep might creep on these conversations....:)

Funny thought..

One Of Those Moments.

I came up with this masterpiece during a hot shower in the guard room at Hjorth Outdoor Pool during my break.
Amazing, the moments you can have in the shower.




Roses are red
Violets are blue
There is no doubt
that our love is true.

Next Time

So I got to see you today. That's good enough for me. :)

Last Day of Swimming.

Today was the last day of swimming practice. No more swim practices. Whatever am I going to do with my afternoons now? It's going to feel kind of odd after having devoted so much of my summer to it, but I see this as finally getting a chance to chill to the rest of the summer.

School starts up again pretty soon. For the last time. Just think... in ten months, I'll have graduated high school. And in a little over a year, it'll be October 24th 2012.

Today was the last day of swim practice, but it was also the first day of the rest of my life.

Amazing

I never knew how much of my mood relied on her. Seriously. Well, maybe I did, but it was never fully realized because up until now,things have been fine and dandy. Not that things aren't fine and dandy, it's just annoying...and stupid...and bleurgh....It's a wonderful, sunny day outside today...What a pity I can't fully enjoy it...Sigh, sigh, sigh....

I'm stupid. You're stupid. We're all stupid.

I'm grumbling. I just sighed. My hair looks retarded.

Lesson learned: Don't be stupid.

On Another Note.

I really really REALLY badly want to eat some McDonald's right now...........................oh Big Mac!! Come to me!!! and take along your companion, FRENCH FRIES!!!!!! Please!!!

Sighs.

Argh.

Omegle - Kader from Algeria

Out of Ideas!?/Descriptions/Itinerary?

I'm really stupid. Moody today. Blaaah!!! I keep trying to make a new blog post but all the things I come up with just aren't good enough!!! It all just seems so meaningless when it's written on the screen. Like the value and worth of the words I type out diminishes with every letter I press. It's so stupid because in my mind, there are so many things that I want to express and so many emotions that I want to share...but I can't!! there are so words, there is nothing that I can say or type that would ever accurately relate the things I am experiencing to the reader. Oh well, too bad.

So here I am. Sitting in my living room. On a beige, leather, sectional sofa. Wearing short black Nike shorts, a white spaghetti-strapped tank top, and a red hoodie that's a tad too big and lacking the end of its zipper.

I started the day off with morning swim. I came home. Changed and laid in bed for ten minutes. Let four tears escape me. Wrote on my calendar. Got up, turned on my laptop, ate food, got ready for volunteering. And now I am here.

Dissection.

I have carefully dissected the tangle of emotions that I sometimes get.

Excited. Anxious. Anticipation. Happiness. Desire. Relief.

It makes me feel like jelly.

Ernestine

I met her today. Her name tag said "Ernie" and I wondered aloud if that was truly her name. She said yes and that she had only met two other Ernestines in her life so far. She's 54 year old. I was surprised when she told me her age so blatantly. Usually, women are more conservative with that part of themselves. She was quite nice for a cashier. A 54 year old one working after 7pm on a Friday night. I bought a single stemmed rose for a project. I love how spontaneous I can be.

Meeting Ernestine was great. A small moment of my life shared with a total stranger's. but she'll never know my name. Oh well. I'll be remembered by her as the teenaged girl who purchased a rose with a jug a 1% milk.

 The first gesture she did to me was wink at me. And the last thing she said to me was "Have a great night" or something like that...

Options

1. We'd be together, happy as can be.
2. We'd be together, one or both of us unhappy, It ends.

1a. Lead perfect lives, live comfortably and happily together.
1b. Lead average lives, maybe not so comfortably, but happy.
1c. Something happens, poor. But happy.
Married? Kids? Apartment? House?


2a. Mutual ending of the relationship, stay friends, it's all good.
2b. Someone gets dumped, not exactly close friends, but friends. (dumped, such a bad sounding word)
2c. Dumped, again, this time, there's no chance of being friends, never talk again.
2d. (if married) divorce.
2e. (if kids) custody?
2f. Someone falls out of love, and back in with someone else, either cheats, or leaves to be with them instead. (possibly even moves away)