Irritations.

There is something wrong with me. It seems as though every little thing is getting to me now. Every. Little. Thing. A small word put out of place, a tiny hint of constructive criticism...Every little thing has gotten me angry and upset. This is stupid. And I feel like I know where it's all coming from. And it seems like a stupid idea, but I feel like this whole thing originates from that one small imperfection in my life. But at the same time, I think that it can be justified that it is that one small imperfection because that one small imperfection means a lot to me. Because if one could spot out that one imperfection and one dissected it and looked into its many facets, one would be able to see that it is a million tiny imperfections. But the one thing that bothers me about the most isn't the fact that it's not happening or whatever...but it's the fact that it's only me. It's only me that's being treated like this, it's only me that's freaking anyone out, it's only me. It's like because of this whole situation, I'm the one that should treated like this because of the things I'm feeling. Which is why I almost wish that I could turn back time and start life all the way from my infancy. It not only bothers me that this happens but it just really hurts. It makes me sad. And if I didn't have anything to distract me from this one thought, I'm pretty sure that I'd be stuck in my room curled up in a little ball making my pillow salty and wet. It's just not normal. It's not the way things usually are. And I don't even understand why this has to even happen. But because of this one tiny imperfection that makes up part of one small imperfection, I am now basically one of the most irritable bitches you'll find. And I'm not using that word to make a statement or whatever but I'm just stating the plain truth right now. So I'm sorry to those of you who are reading this because I'm assuming that you know me and you're probably pretty close to me as well, but I'm saying sorry because I'm an irritable bitch right now. I'm sorry. I'm working on it.