When the truth is found to be lies. And all the joy within you dies.

You know what I hate most about not being able to date? the fact that if I could, I probably would! Like it totally wouldn't bother me at all if I knew that even if I were to have the honor of that privilege, I wouldn't use it to my advantage anyways, like if I never talked to guys and I was really really mean, cruel, ugly, shy, not out going.. I don't know... whatever works... it just would not bother me half as much as it does bother me because I wouldn't have any dilemma with not being able to be with anyone if I wouldn't want to be with anyone anyways and vice versa!!! It's just so stupid! Why wasn't I born so that I could be some introvert that never had a chance with the boys anyways? some chick who would spend forever in her room getting amazing marks in physics with the life goal of just making my parents happy? Why?!@!?!? It would be so much easier right now if that were the case. but I guess that's it, isn't it? Life isn't easy and we're all just thrown into different scenarios that we just gotta live through. Guess that's what makes it worth something.