Smile.

because you can. because someone cares about you.because you're not going to sleep hungry tonight.because you have a million opportunities to do what you want in life.because you are the only person that gets to decide where you want your life to end up. because somebody loves you. because you don't have to struggle to survive every day. because you can.

you're a candle in the window on a cold dark winter's night.

Okay then, last night was ....weird.. Guess that's what I get when I'm blogging at 11 30 at night while I'm sick and stuff...
Haha! it's like things that you regret doing when you're drunk except I don't drink so this is my version, things that you kinda almost regret but not really because it's so entertaining when you're blogging at 11pm while sick and on meds.
But seriously, I can't believe that I did those things last night.
....and that sounded dirty. But it wasn't because I wasn't ...yeah...okay moving on!

I seriously hate being sick. It's horribly disgusting and you're all like 'BLAAH!!!!' and it feels like you have an army of ants that are attacking your throat..
But I have to have to HAVE TO!! get better by tomorrow because other than the fact I have Vocal Jazz tomorrow and I need to be able to sing... I promised my sister that if I don't get better by the time the long weekend is over that I'd go to the doctor. And I don't wanna go to the DOCTOR!!!!!! 'Cause doctors scare me.. okay no they don't but it's seems so pointless when you just have a mild cold...I should go eat more apples.
But that quote doesn't make sense to me!! Like the absolutely literal meaning of it 'An apple a day keeps the doctor away.' makes it sound like you can ward away doctors with apples the way you ward away vampires with garlic!! Like okay yeah, i get that it means that apples are good for you and will keep you healthy enough that you won't ever need to go to the doctor but okay..Imagine a korean international student ('cause my school has so many of them!) and they just came to Canada and they barely know any English at all...plus they're afraid of doctors. Isn't it possible for them to interpret the quote wrongly? They'd be carrying apples with them everywhere! and then everytime they are near a doctor, they hold out like an apple in front of them as like protection... oh wow...
Off topic much.

So I have decided that every single time that I write something strange like this, it'll be titled a line from a song that I could think of at the moment.. and yeah..I don't get songs stuck in my head...they just kinda go through one ear..mingle in my brain ..and then they go out the other ear..

No one can save me like you do...

holy craap...being sick is making me retarded.. So hey guys, I found out that a couple millions years ago that I am partially if not totally taken over by that naked kid that has wings and shoots arrows at stuff..yup.
oh, and I'm sick btw so...yeah....
Confession: I think I'm in love.
Whoops! there goes my secret...wow...I had a secret...
He's such a weirdo too....which is good and bad because like....okay imagine our kids. (not that I'm planning on having any or anything but for conversational interestingness's sake)
they would be the most messed up children ever!
They'd have like ....omg....they be like freaks of nature..not even kidding.. imagine ...okay imagine a boy asian kid...with freckles...and green eyes......it just doesn't work...it's like....now imagine a white girl with dark straight brown hair and asian type squinty eyes....wait....I don't have squintty eyes..do I???

(rushes over to mirror) hmmm...not sure.....
anyways....okay....maybe the girl kid would be kinda cute but the guy kid would be taunted....maybe...unless he was awesome like his crazy mom....
Wow.....I just realized how embarassed of me my kids are gonna be...Haha! I could totally imagine myself being that mom that thinks she's all 'down with the kids' when she really isn't..oh dear....imagine:
midget mother who thinks she's cool.

You know what? whoever you are? creeping my page?
I think freckles are really really, really really really really, really..REALLY!!!!!!!! really really really really really really really (is it startin' to look weird yet?) really really- really, really really..
cute. :)

wow, look who's obsessed tonight!
guess it must be the meds and the vitamin C.
and I'm facebooking him right now too...he's probably weirded out by me and how hyper I am but that's okay cause that's how we roll..:D

i don't even know why I titled the title a line from Hedley's song "You're Amazing"......I think it's cause I was kinda all like 'I love you!!! but I dun' wanna tell you o'er the internet cause i hate saying things like that o'er the internet cause i think it lessens the value so imma write a retarded blog instead..'

and yeah.....
okay... I think y'all has gotz enough convincing that I am crazy for a day.
not that any of you NEED convincing.
's all.
Bye.

It's black and white, we cool for life.

I know that we are young and I know that you may love me...
but I just can't be with you like this anymore...
Alejandro.

love of my life..

I ain't got no fancy ride,
ain't got no money to go out tonight...
All I got is this feelin' inside..

all i know is what i want
and it's you.

4:22
and i'm thinkin' 'bout you,
dunno what to do..
but then what else is new?

The Fallen Leaves..

the falling leaves....
drift by my window
the autumn leaves...
of red and gold...
I see your lips
the summer kisses...


the sunburned hands..
I used to hold..




not by me... song I had to sing for Vocal Jazz auditions..