Fix Yourself.

Gotta live, gotta learn
Know your weaknesses and overcome 'em unless you wanna be at a mercy of your own doing.
And only by your undoing will you be able to succeed. Fix it. Fix yourself.
'Cause the only thing you can change in this crazy world is you.
You are your own enemy.
One that must be conquered and controlled.
Do yourself a favor and don't screw yourself over.
'Cause in the end, you have only yourself to blame.

So suck it up and fix yourself. You know what's wrong, you know what it takes.
Lemme tell ya somethin' honey, it ain't easy, but it ain't impossible.
Take a shot.

One day I shall explode.

The strange sensations of my heart
Pulling me down, down, down...
It gets heavier and heavier
Every day, every night...
It feels as though I am dragging something along with me
What is it?
Problems I don't want to touch
things shoved in the back of the closet that is my mind...
Heart break. Disappointment. Jealousy.
Fantasies that will stay fantasies
...And the realization that I'm not enough.
Not enough.
So one day.
I shall explode.
And all the people who have known me will cry and mourn for my sake.
And they'll get over it.
Quickly.

Leftovers.

It's hard to appreciate the things that I have when I don't like what I have. For exmaple there is the thing called food. Food is good and when prepared properly, it can be one of the most amazing things to ever experience. However, this is not a perfect world so unfortunately there are those rare unfortunate times when a lack of love is created. This is exibited in the leftover noodles that I had for dinner today. They were soggy and gross. When they were first freshly made yesterday, they were alright but only alright because I had had them for the past two weeks. This morning I had packed them for lunch and had not finished the entire meal therefore I was forced to microwave it for a second time and torture my esophagus with it for dinner. It was revolting. But having being raised by people who have literally starved in their life before, the guilt that would have appeared was a worse endeavor. Still...nothing's worse than the feeling of food that's on the brink of going bad in your mouth. Eugh.

7:26 am

Tired. But that moment still comes no matter what happens. Never failing to arrive, never hesitating to interrupt the peace. I unwillingly wake up and I am greeted by a dark, dreary Surrey morning. The sound of the rain, the darkness of my room, and the warmth of my bed all work to try and lull me back to the dreams I had left only minutes before.

Take a Break. Have a Laugh. At Me.

COME TO MEEE!!!!!

ode to a snow day.

Oh, Snow...
How pretty is thee, how awesome, how fantabulous...
You make funny noises when stepped on,
The blanket of white,
I don't know what say...
mais toute je sais est tu es merveilleux...

Two Sides To A Coin.

He's 16. Not overly athletic, not overly smart, not 'good looking', not the kind of guy people notice. He's Christian, plays drums (not the best), and swims. He's very shy, but when he's around people he knows well, can actually be quite the opposite. There is a girl in his life, one that keeps him oddly quiet. He was honestly surprised when he found out the feeling was mutual though. He hadn't expected someone as amazing as her to say "I like you too". And now he's most likely going to ruin it, because he can't seem to talk to her. There are still 653 days, 6 hours, and 25 minutes until they can be 'together', so he's REALLY hoping he can get over it and start a conversation with her for once. And while he's trying to deal with this, she's got it all. It's kind of interesting to see, 'cause they're almost complete opposites. He's shy, she's not. She's smart, he's not. She's perfect, he's everything but. It could be interesting to see what happens between them. Anyway, he's not overly popular, has his little group of friends, good enough for him.


She's 16. Average for an asian, not a straight A student, not too bad to look at, and she can seem pretty crazy. She's Christian, she loves to sing, and swims. She's never been shy and doesn't know the meaning of timidity. There is a boy in her life, the only one that makes her feel sort of nervous. She was absolutely astonished when she found out he felt the same way. She never thought she'd ever hear his voice echo back the words that described how she felt. And even after all this realization, she can't seem to bring herself to the 'simple' task of starting a conversation, something that she of all people should be a master at. And while she's gotta reconcile with this new difficulty of hers, she's admiring him from afar tryna to work up the courage to start something real. Because to her, he seems so absolutely out of her realm, something different, mysterious, undiscovered. Anyways, she's popular enough, depending on your definition, has too many friends to realize which are real and which are fake, but lives in Canada so she really can't complain about her life...

Horrible. Annoyed. Icky.

Complaints: Me, Myself, and I

I have come to notice that I am very self-centered and that I suck at doing the things that I tell other people to do. I am extremely hypocritical and the root of all of my troubles are all of my own doing. I have a pretty quick temper and I do not allow much room for leniency. My sarcastic remarks can be hurtful and my mind is way too quick at blaming others. There...I admitted it...Now what?

Well that heavily sucks.

Number One: French Project

So my group and I decided to not use our winter break to our advantage and rather than working on a big french video prject, we were partying the entire time paying no mind t the doom we were headed for. So school starts and we were going all "wtf are we gonna do?!" and then it's like "Oh. We still have one more weekend to do this thing. Problem solved." Or so you'd think. Then one the immune systems of a member of our group had to choose two days before to crash and get all sick. Thanks a bunch immune system of dear Samantha Hendriksen. Not. So now it's back to square one. Almost. Except for the fact that the two leftover group members (my wonderful self and some other chick) are scrambling to get whatever else we can get done done, we're screwed. Kind of, not really. Well, it all depends on the teacher and if she'll be nice enough to pardon dear Samantha's immune system. But whatever. It's only French.


Number Two: User Crash

I am a not very good at taking care of my belongings. For example, today I have discovered that part of my computer has been infected by a virus and this part of my computer is being all virused and is no longer working. I can't even understand it. It doesn't make sense to me what has happened to my computer. You know how there is a computer and then you turn it on and then you choose which user you are like "Guest" or "Nancy Le" or whatever? Well, my "Nancy Le" has been infected and now I am on the user "Guest". I have no idea what to do and it seems as though I may have to give up my darling "Nancy Le" user thing. It's weird because there's this thing that comes up and it's saying that I have to buy something for like 50$ and then it'll clean out all the virus and spyware crap. So I kinda just fled to the Guest user. Oh well. It'll get fixed one day. Maybe. either that or I'ma have to get used to using Guest.

Number Three: Make it or Break it. [Taurus + Scorpio]

So...let's see now, it has been approximately awhile since the whole discovery of the existence of mutual emotions regarding Aphrodite and we're are where now? Same as where we were before. Of course. Duh. What else can one expect? Am I annoyed? No. Am I getting impatient? No. Am I lying? Maybe....? Well, no. Truthfully, I am not annoyed, nor am I getting impatient. I am just doing fine and dandy as expected. But holy firetruck! Who could have guessed that from one single nosy little email, that it could have exploded into something of this magnitude? Honestly, when I asked that question I was going for some unknown person's name and that's all. but nope. Instead I got a three letter word and a flurry of darling text messages that both annoyed me and made my heart melt. At the same time. :O
I have no idea what to expect from this, but I have definitely learned not to expect much in the coming days, weeks, months...Until October 24th 2012, where I shall set the bar so high, holy crap, you actually have no idea. See you then.





And that, ladies and gentlemen, is my life story as of right now.

Annoying.

My stupid dream last night. I guess it was okay, only the only part I cared about mde it retarded because that one part was retarded.. I guess it only came out the way it did because I was really thinking hard about it and stuff right before I went to sleep. So, I really have no one but myself to blame for the dissatisfaction of my own dream. IT WAS SO STUPID!!! and retarded...and just messed up. Just blah. Ugh. Go way dream, nobody wants you here. Well, at least I don't. I hope it doesn't come true because it is one of the things that make me *teardrop.

Quickstar Clearmist.

I really have no idea what to say at all right now but I just really feel like blogging. So winter break is over. How very very very very sad. Ah well..it was fun while it lasted and ending it with three sleepovers in a row was one of my more genius ideas. Still I can't really say that I want winter break to keep going because if it did then swimming wouldn't ever start again and that would be sad because of reasons that don't have anything to do with my love of swimming. So happy I passed NLS though, I seriously thought that I was gonna fail, seriously, you people have no idea how hard that course is until you take it, but it also depends on your teacher too. Well, I guess this is all...my mom is gonna shoo me off the computer soon enough anyways.

Bacon.

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Dead bored.

Dead bored.
Bah.



..................................ICE SKATING!!!!!!!!!!!!



with my bffl4eva...

this shall be very interesting.

hehe.